This weekend was all work, and one big *sigh* after another.
This IM-ing with Saon is getting rather old. He talked about how I was the “one who got away”. I told him I didn’t get away, I was sent away. To which he replied, “I was young and dumb”.
Then he mentions Chaz by name (which really freaked me out!) and asks if he’s my boyfriend. I said he was, but how do you explain to someone who doesn’t really care about how I’ve moved on that it’s not really like that at all. I like Chaz, I enjoy his company, but I don’t think he and I ever established that we were boyfriend/girlfriend. I don’t call Chaz my boyfriend (after all he’s not a boy, is he?), and we’re not really dating. So I take that as a sign that I am free to “date” others if I so choose.
Just not Saon. If he ever comes up here, I’ll hang out with him, but not be alone with him. But he won’t so I have nothing to worry about.
I just can’t see a future with Chaz, either. As far as I’m concerned, my immediate future is school, studying, and hanging out with family and friends.
Then there is (*sigh*) someone else. Someone else I’d like to spend more time with, but at the present time, that’s not possible.
All hail the Queen of Wishful Thinking…
That’s all from where I sit.