I don’t know how this is all going to turn out

This weekend was all work, and one big *sigh* after another.

This IM-ing with Saon is getting rather old. He talked about how I was the “one who got away”. I told him I didn’t get away, I was sent away. To which he replied, “I was young and dumb”.

Cue eyeroll.

Then he mentions Chaz by name (which really freaked me out!) and asks if he’s my boyfriend. I said he was, but how do you explain to someone who doesn’t really care about how I’ve moved on that it’s not really like that at all. I like Chaz, I enjoy his company, but I don’t think he and I ever established that we were boyfriend/girlfriend. I don’t call Chaz my boyfriend (after all he’s not a boy, is he?), and we’re not really dating. So I take that as a sign that I am free to “date” others if I so choose.

Just not Saon. If he ever comes up here, I’ll hang out with him, but not be alone with him. But he won’t so I have nothing to worry about.

I just can’t see a future with Chaz, either. As far as I’m concerned, my immediate future is school, studying, and hanging out with family and friends.

Then there is (*sigh*) someone else. Someone else I’d like to spend more time with, but at the present time, that’s not possible.

All hail the Queen of Wishful Thinking…

That’s all from where I sit.



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