I declined Chaz’s request to come over yesterday because I was just plain wiped out.
I’m tired when I get up in the morning, even though I’ve been getting plenty of sleep. I literally have to force myself to get out of bed and go to class.
Then there’s the not eating bit. I’m lucky I eat once a day. Nothing appeals to me. So I buy stuff I like and more often than not, I don’t get to finish all of it and I end up throwing it out.
And (and this surprises even me) I’m hoarding every penny I have. I’m determined to have money at the end of the semester and not have to go back to work between semesters. If I do go back to the morning job, it will be because I WANT to have extra money, not because I NEED money.
I just don’t want to burden other people with my problems. I need the time and the space to figure out what the hell is wrong with me, if anything. I hate feeling this way. This is not normal for me.
That’s all from where I sit.