I don’t do this waiting thing well any more

And waiting leads to thinking, which leads to overthinking, which leads to panic in this case.

I was discharged from the hospital on Feb. 13th, and have follow up appointments on Feb. 19 and March 6.

It’s the February appointment that concerns me, because that one is with the hematologist. The blood doctor. Because all 3 of my blood levels are seriously low.

That, on its own, scares me enough because it usually leads to more serious illnesses. And I hope that’s not the case, but I’ll be prepared for it anyway.

Why can’t I have my old life back?

I wonder if not having found a radio job out of state yet was/is God’s way of telling me I was going to experience this and to stay close to family for support. We will soon find out.

Oh, and by the way, healthcare.gov is a joke. But more on that later.


I’m Stef and this is where it’s @ !~


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