The damn meds aren’t working

I don’t feel any better than I did this time last week. But then again, I’m not feeling worse than I did this time last week. 

I’m still having the dry cough, and the trouble with breathing. I get exhausted just walking from the living room to the kitchen. Today, I went from the recliner to the couch and thought I was going to pass out!

I’m sleepy all the time, and I have no appetite to speak of. I had to choke down a bowl of ramen because I felt full. I know this isn’t normal for me. 

I’m still waiting on the pharmacy to refill my diuretics, because they had to call the doctors at Nazih Zudhi to get approval. Meanwhile, I’m retaining fluid, and that’s not helping the pleural effusion I have in my right lung. 

This entire month has been one big clusterfuck for me. Being sick, money coming in late- which made my rent late to the tune of $170 above and beyond my rent payment. I had plans for that $170, thank you. 

I don’t want to have to go back to the ER because this bronchitis morphed into pneumonia or something. This is ridiculous! 

Pardon me for being frustrated. I just don’t like being so sick I cannot function properly. I’ve got stuff to do, dammit all!


I’m Stef and this is where it’s @ !~

Take a deep breath


Early Monday morning (2/13/17), I finally decided to find out why I was having so much trouble breathing, and so I had Daniel take me to the ER.

To make a long story short, I have bronchitis and pleural effusion (fluid around the lungs). As soon as they took the x-ray, I knew that’s what they were looking for. So I was not surprised to hear it (I was more surprised at the bronchitis diagnosis, tbh). 
After a couple of hours, I was given some prescriptions and sent home. I had Jeff drop off the prescriptions at Walgreens (because CVS no longer has a contract with Blue Cross Blue Shield of Oklahoma). Daniel picked them up after Dean paid for them, because I’m essentially broke. At least, that’s what I understood. 

One of my bronchitis meds is albuterol. In an inhaler that I have to use twice a day as long as symptoms persist. 

Then I got what’s known as a “Z-pak”. That’s supposed to help with the infection. Then some heavy duty cough syrup that knocks me out.

Meanwhile, I keep my butt at home while working thru all this crap. 

Happy happy joy joy…

I hope this isn’t an indication of things to come for this year. 

Fifty three never looked so good 😝


I’m Stef and this is where it’s @ !~

The weight

I’m sick. How sick, I have no idea.

All I know is that it is hard to breathe, but it doesn’t feel like pleural effusion. It feels more like I have a thousand pounds of concrete sitting on my chest. It feels worse when my 5lb. cat Salem sits on my chest. Usually, because he’s so light, it doesn’t even bother me. It does now.

I ran out of meds last week. I go to renew my prescriptions with CVS, and it turns out that Blue Cross Blue Shield OK doesn’t have a contact with CVS any more. And not one word from BCBSOK regarding this. So now not only do I need meds, I have to transfer my current prescriptions to another pharmacy. I’ve used Walgreens, so I think I’ll transfer my prescriptions to them. 

So now, I need to get over this whatever I’ve got and get back on my meds, stat. 

I may be making a trip to the ER sooner rather than later.



I’m Stef and this is where it’s @ !~

Food for thought

I found this by chance in an article that mentioned Martin Luther King, Jr., posted by his daughter, Bernice on her Facebook page “Be a King”. I am passing it along as a word to the wise. 

  • 1. Use his name sparingly so as not to detract from the issues. I believe that everyone, regardless of their beliefs, deserves the dignity of being called by their name. However, this is a strategic tactic. While we are so focused on him we are prone to neglect the questionable policies that threaten freedom, justice and fairness advanced by the administration.
  • 2. Remember this is a regime and he’s not acting alone;
  • 3. Do not argue with those who support him and his policies–it doesn’t work;
  • 4. Focus on his policies, not his appearance  and mental state;
  • 5. Keep your message positive; those who oppose peace and justice want the country to be angry and fearful because this is the soil from which their darkest policies will grow;
  • 6. No more helpless/hopeless talk;
  • 7. Support artists and the arts;
  • 8. Be careful not to spread fake news. Check it;
  • 9. Take care of yourselves; and
  • 10. Resist!

Keep demonstrations peaceful. In the words of John Lennon, “When it gets down to having to use violence, then you are playing the system’s game. The establishment will irritate you – pull your beard, flick your face – to make you fight! Because once they’ve got you violent, then they know how to handle you. The only thing they don’t know how to handle is non-violence and humor.”
When you post or talk about him, don’t assign his actions to him, assign them to “The Republican Administration,” or “The Republicans.” This will have several effects: the Republican legislators will either have to take responsibility for their association with him or stand up for what some of them don’t like; he will not get the focus of attention he craves; Republican representatives will become very concerned about their re-elections.

We are living in dangerous times. We have a narcissistic, xenophobic, sexist, Hitler wannabe in the highest office in the land, put there by people who swallowed his lies hook, line and sinker. He does not have the best interests of the country at heart; just his own bloated self importance. He shoots down people who disagree with him; he trots out people to spew so called “facts” which are lies and half truths; he puts unqualified and inappropriate people in positions of power; he is not, I repeat, NOT making America great again. It was already great. He’s alienated our allies and crawled into bed with the likes of Putin and Erdogan. Personally, I think he’s bordering on insanity and should be removed from office
But that’s just my opinion. Your mileage may vary.


Donald Trump has been president for two weeks, and he’s already lost me.

I tried to give him the benefit of the doubt and see what he’d do in his first 100 days… but 15 days in and I’m convinced he’s a couple sandwiches short of a picnic.

First there was him bitching and moaning about the crowd size at the inauguration. He was convinced it was bigger than the turnout for Barack Obama in 2009. Trump’s press secretary Sean Spicer then reiterated that it was the biggest turnout ever, when photographic evidence contradicted that claim. Then Trump’s mouthpiece Kellyanne Conway came up with this new term for what is basically lying: alternative facts.

Then there’s Trump’s rampant use of Twitter. I think he has no business on Twitter, especially now he’s the president, but apparently, no one in Trump’s inner circle can tell him no. 

Then, just when things were getting ridiculous, he signs this executive order barring people from seven predominantly Muslim countries from entering the US, claiming it was keeping America safe. Apparently, the ban included those who held visas and US citizens. And Trump insists it’s not a “Muslim ban”. Um, yeah, it is. Fortunately just the other day, a judge out in Washington state put a restraining order on the executive order. Well that pissed off Trump enough to insult this judge stating he would fight to order from this “so called” judge. 

Then Kellyanne is back with some bullshit story about the “Bowling Green Massacre”. She actually said that most people probably never heard of it because it wasn’t reported. Could that be, Ms Conway, because it never fucking happened?

She got all kinds of crap on social media about it, then head the audacity to say it was “an honest mistake”!

And Trump still wants to build that damn wall on the border with Mexico! For all the money that could possibly cost, the US could help the homeless, the poor, veterans, and still be able to give every American adult money to boot. 

Oh I forgot, he also pissed off the Australian PM during a call about an agreement that was made with Obama to take in 1200 refugees they have. It was also reported that he bragged about winning the electoral vote… to the Australian PM! Then hung up on him. 

Dear world: yes, we know our new president is a dick. Most sane people here can’t stand him. The people who do support him think he’s doing a great job… and are just as delusional as he is.

I’m not going to stand idly by and watch him destroy our country. He’s bound and determined to run the USA like one of his businesses. He doesn’t care about being president, he just wants to line the pockets of him and his rich cronies. 

God help the USA…

I’m Stef and this is where it’s @ !~

Then they came for me…

​I was inspired to post this on Facebook yesterday by a post from George Takei, about a possible Trump registry for Muslims. 

For those who don’t know, Mr. Takei was in a Japanese internment camp as a very young child along with his family. He sees a possible Muslim registry as a repeat of internment camps; all because some Muslims look like those who commit terror acts around the world. It wasn’t fair in the early days of WWII, and it’s not fair now. Most Muslims I know abhor violent acts committed in Allah’s name. In fact, I believe there is a verse in the Koran that states that if one kills another, it’s as if they’ve killed the whole of humanity.
So I found a poem on the Holocaust Museum’s website that says this: 
First they came for the Socialists, and I did not speak out—

Because I was not a Socialist.

Then they came for the Trade Unionists, and I did not speak out— 

Because I was not a Trade Unionist.

Then they came for the Jews, and I did not speak out— 

Because I was not a Jew.

Then they came for me—and there was no one left to speak for me.

Because this could very easily say this: 

First they came for people of color, and I did not speak out—
Because I was not a person of color.

Then they came for the gays, lesbians, bisexuals, and transgenders and I did not speak out— 

Because I was not gay, lesbian, bisexual or transgendered.

Then they came for the poets, writers, artists, actors and musicians, and I did not speak out-

Because I was not any of those things.

Then they came for me—and there was no one left to speak for me

We must speak up against any and all kinds of discrimination and hatred against people who may not look like you, or worship like you. We’re all in this together. 
After all, who will speak up for you when there’s no one left? 

I’m Stef and this is where it’s @ !~

The Birth of Christ (Luke 2:1-20, KJV)

(This is probably one of those rare times I will directly quote the Bible. So bear with me).

And it came to pass in those days, that there went out a decree from Caesar Augustus that all the world should be taxed.

(And this taxing was first made when Cyrenius was governor of Syria.)

And all went to be taxed, every one into his own city.

And Joseph also went up from Galilee, out of the city of Nazareth, into Judaea, unto the city of David, which is called Bethlehem; (because he was of the house and lineage of David:)

To be taxed with Mary his espoused wife, being great with child.

And so it was, that, while they were there, the days were accomplished that she should be delivered.

And she brought forth her firstborn son, and wrapped him in swaddling clothes, and laid him in a manger; because there was no room for them in the inn.

And there were in the same country shepherds abiding in the field, keeping watch over their flock by night.

And, lo, the angel of the Lord came upon them, and the glory of the Lord shone round about them: and they were sore afraid.

10 And the angel said unto them, Fear not: for, behold, I bring you good tidings of great joy, which shall be to all people.

11 For unto you is born this day in the city of David a Saviour, which is Christ the Lord.

12 And this shall be a sign unto you; Ye shall find the babe wrapped in swaddling clothes, lying in a manger.

13 And suddenly there was with the angel a multitude of the heavenly host praising God, and saying,

14 Glory to God in the highest, and on earth peace, good will toward men.

15 And it came to pass, as the angels were gone away from them into heaven, the shepherds said one to another, Let us now go even unto Bethlehem, and see this thing which is come to pass, which the Lord hath made known unto us.

16 And they came with haste, and found Mary, and Joseph, and the babe lying in a manger.

17 And when they had seen it, they made known abroad the saying which was told them concerning this child.

18 And all they that heard it wondered at those things which were told them by the shepherds.

19 But Mary kept all these things, and pondered them in her heart.

20 And the shepherds returned, glorifying and praising God for all the things that they had heard and seen, as it was told unto them.