Hot as…

It was 104°F here in Edmond, America yesterday. 

It’s 5:30 am, and it’s already 84°F…with a high of 99°F. 

And I can’t sleep. 

My stomach is grumbling due to the Lactulose, my head hurts, and I’m sleeping on the couch because I threw away my last set of sheets because I discovered bed bugs.

Where those came from, I can only speculate. It doesn’t appear they’ve infested the mattress though, as I haven’t seen the telltale signs. They were hiding behind a picture hanging near my bed. I’m going to treat the mattress with some stuff I found at Lowe’s and pray that does the trick. Then I’ll buy new sheets, blankets, and pillows. I can’t afford a new bed at this point in time. But I’ll get one if there’s no other choice. 

Because my couch really is too short for me to sleep on…and I’m not all that tall; only about 5’4″.

But back to the weather. 

All I want is a good downpour to cool things off for a couple of days. Because right now, 99 is not cold. The heat and humidity make me ill and I don’t sweat to speak of. I’m a walking, talking hot mess of a gal. Going to the hospital due to heat exhaustion is not on my summer to do list. Or any other trip to the hospital for that matter. 

Rain, please?

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I’m Stef and this is where it’s @ !~ 


Still trying to “catch” something

I thought it was because I ate way too much on July 4th, but 2 days later, I still feel like 💩. 

Errands and groceries still have to get done though. No one else will do them for me. 

It’s this headache that’s going to do me in. Last time that happened, I ended up in the ER because I accidentally took Excedrin, which has aspirin in it. I can’t take stuff like Advil because it has ibuprofin in it, and that’s not good for my wonky liver.

Either the headache or the lumpy feeling in my stomach. I had a piece of toast for breakfast. After that, I was full. And taking my morning meds with water made the fullness worse. My stomach actually hurts. 

I guess it’s back to grilled cheese sandwiches, soup, and mac n cheese for me. Maybe a salad thrown in there once in a while. And Zevia™ ginger ale to quiet things down. 

*sigh*

I’m Stef, and this is where it’s @ !~

Sick again

Not “admitted to the hospital” sick, but feeling like crud nonetheless.

I think I ate something that just wasn’t copecetic with my digestive system. Been feeling nauseous all damn day.

I wish I could figure out what that something was so I won’t eat/drink it again.

This is the first time in a while (April?) that I’ve felt less than stellar. At least I can breathe, so it’s not that. Thank goodness…

And that ends my bitch n moan session for this evening.

I’m Stef and this is where it’s @ !~

Worst. June. Ever.

And while I’m not at liberty to go into more detail (because it involves a member of my family not real impressed with social media), I can tell you this episode has left me an emotional mess. 

And though I’ve been assured that none of it is my fault, I feel like I’m partly responsible. 

It’s their story to tell if they wish to, and because of that, I won’t say what happened and what the outcome is. All I know is that I’d give anything for things to go back to normal. At the same time, I know deep inside that things won’t be quote-unquote  normal.

And that kinda makes me sad.

*sigh*

I can’t even…

Things I’m sick of hearing about in the news:

  1. Terrorism– do people hate themselves and other people -some who may not be of the same faith, ethnicity, sexuality, or political ideology, etc.- so much that they have to kill and maim them? No one has a solution that is really feasible, except maybe banning or discriminating them? Really?
  2. Calling all media “fake”– if it doesn’t make you look good, it’s automatically labelled as fake. 
  3. Alternative facts– so you make shit up that has no grain of truth to it whatsoever? Example: everything that comes out of the mouth of the mouthpiece du jour of the current administration.
  4. Tweeting– personally, I don’t think the POTUS should have access to Twitter. Period. 
  5. Donald Trump– he’s clearly way out of his depth here, but can anyone tell him that? Noooooo….

And that’s​ just today! 

He’s been president about 5 months, and he had managed, in that time, to make the USA the laughingstock of the. entire. planet. 

I mean, why couldn’t we have a cool leader like Canada’s Trudeau, France’s Macron, or even Germany’s Angela Merkel? Why do we get TweedleTrump the Wonder Dummy? 

Can we just throw the lot of them out and start over? 

Dear World:

Yes, we know our president is an idiot. I certainly didn’t vote for his arrogant ass. He does NOT, repeat, not represent the average​ American. He only represents those who are uber wealthy like himself. 

We know he’s not fit for the office he holds. But unless his own party starts the process to have him removed, we’re stuck with the Twittering jerk. 

He’s the reason so many Americans are rising up and letting their voices be heard. He, and his cronies, just ignore us…because he knows “more than the generals”, the scientists, the experts in fields he has no trouble insulting. Just as long as he looks good.

Our allies can no longer trust our government. He needs to be removed from office for his obvious ineptitude. He needs to take the rich SOBs in his cabinet with him. Pence, Bannon, Jared, Ivanka, Kellyanne, Spicer, Sessions…the whole lot of them need to go!

I fear for my country. This is not what our veterans fought for. My parents would be appalled at what’s happening to the United States. Thank God they’re not here to see this clusterfuck of an adminstration. 

I better stop now before I literally have a stroke. I am not happy. I am scared of what other bassackward things Trump has up his sleeve. 

Please pray for us, World. 

Much love and respect,

Stef

Ah, yes…

Those pesky missed opportunities.

They’re have been so many of those. 

Look, I’ll be happy if we have lunch. Anything after that is icing on the cake.

It’s not gonna happen.

Update: 5/19/17

It’s not happening. I can say that for certain right now. It won’t happen because the other party doesn’t want it to.

I’ll be very surprised if it does. But it won’t. They don’t want it badly enough. 

My question is, why do I keep doing this to myself? Shouldn’t I just find someone who really wants to be with me? 

What’s wrong with me? Is it my fault, or is it a flaw in his personality? Neither one of us is perfect, but I do wish he’d stop yanking my chain. 

Maybe I’ll have to change locations to find that someone who wants to be with me; who would move heaven and Earth to be with me. I can’t stay in this uncertainty indefinitely​. It’ll drive me insane.

And I like my sanity, #thankyouverymuch.

Self preservation. That’s what it boils down to. Advance or retreat. Maybe now is the time to fold my tent and steal off into the night. 

I have nothing left to lose.