Weird dreams

I don’t know what it is about my dreams lately, but they are some of the strangest experiences I’ve ever had.

There are people in them I haven’t seen or heard from in ages, or people from different parts of my life who would never meet in real life, or people I know that have gone on to their eternal rest (my parents, a few friends, etc.)…

And the scenarios are just as bizarre. A back room of some bar that you can pay to be placed in a “womb pillow”; a house I’ve never lived in or visited; out in the middle of nowhere, without a stitch of clothing on. 

Or flying without a plane. 

I could blame it on my meds, but I don’t think that’s it. The only time I’ve had drug induced dreams is when I’ve taken NyQuil, morphine or diualid (I’m not sure of the spelling of that though). 

*sigh* Just another weird quirk of my personality, I guess. I could write a book!


I’m Stef and this where it’s @ !~

It’s just a strain…

Managed to strain a chest muscle. How? By reaching into the back a desk drawer to get out the bottle stuck there keeping the drawer from closing properly. 

And yes, it hurts.

Ended up at the acute care clinic, who ascertained that I didn’t have a cracked rib (because I heard something go pop), but I seriously stained the muscle. I was given scripts for naprosyn (prescription strength Aleve) for the pain and a muscle relaxer. Both make me sleepy so I’m getting some good sleep and having some bizarre dreams. 

And I actually got out and got all my errands done today. 

This has got to stop. I’m tired of being sick or doing something to another part of my body. I’m exhausted! 

This growing old business is for the birds! I wanna be 25 again! Since that not going to happen, I guess I’ll just have to accept that I’m getting older. 



I’m Stef and this is where it’s @ !~

My own personal ring on Dante’s inferno

On Monday (3/6/17), I went back to the ER because I still couldn’t breathe and was dizzy on top of it all. 

They did all kinds of tests to figure out what was wrong. 

Six hours later, I was sent home with prescriptions for even more meds that don’t work, and a diagnosis of vertigo and pneumonia. Apparently, I never had bronchitis. 

I’ve slept really good the last couple of nights. Why is it that I get my best sleep when I’m sick? 

If I have to make any more trips to the ER, I may as well just move in. This is ridiculous!

Good news out of all this is that I’ve lost 15 lbs. But when you have no appetite to speak of, I guess that’s a given.

This crap has been going on about six weeks too long. 

It’s 11pm. I’m going to bed. Good night. 😴💤💤💤


I’m Stef and this is where it’s @ !~

Another trip to the “health spa”

Welp, the pleural effusion got a whole lot worse. And I don’t think I ever had bronchitis because I just didn’t feel bad enough (and I had it a lot as a kid, so I’d know). I just couldn’t effin breathe!

So of to the ER, again, to explain my sad tale of woe: came on Feb. 13, diagnosed with bronchitis and sent home with a bunch of prescriptions that essentially did nothing. I can’t breathe. 

So many tests later, my right lung is surrounded by fluid, my platelets are ridiculously low, and I’m admitted to the hospital. Where they can’t decide whether to keep me in Edmond or send me to Baptist in OKC. I said I’d go to Baptist, but was kept in Edmond instead. 

So I’m given oxygen to keep my brain from frying from not getting enough, and all I want to do is sleep. Of course, no sleep was to be had the first night. 

Then I was told that someone from Baptist was coming to do the thoracentesis (the removal of the fluid from around my lung), but no set time table as to when they’d be there. All I know is that if they’re coming, I was to get a platelet transfusion because the one from the night before lasted all of 30 minutes, leaving my platelet count lower than when I was admitted. 

When I had this condition two years ago, the thoracentesis was a relatively painless procedure. This time, though, I was on my own personal ring on Dante’s inferno. It hurt like hell, and even now 4 days later, is still sore. I had to have morphine for the pain, which totally knocked me out. 

Now, I feel like I’m coming down with something and I’m dizzy to the point of passing out. Plus, I’m still having trouble breathing, just not as bad as it had been. I went out yesterday, which was a big mistake because it only made me feel worse. 

Those people at Integris are going to be so sick of me… they probably already are. 


I’m Stef, and this is where it’s @ !~

The damn meds aren’t working

I don’t feel any better than I did this time last week. But then again, I’m not feeling worse than I did this time last week. 

I’m still having the dry cough, and the trouble with breathing. I get exhausted just walking from the living room to the kitchen. Today, I went from the recliner to the couch and thought I was going to pass out!

I’m sleepy all the time, and I have no appetite to speak of. I had to choke down a bowl of ramen because I felt full. I know this isn’t normal for me. 

I’m still waiting on the pharmacy to refill my diuretics, because they had to call the doctors at Nazih Zudhi to get approval. Meanwhile, I’m retaining fluid, and that’s not helping the pleural effusion I have in my right lung. 

This entire month has been one big clusterfuck for me. Being sick, money coming in late- which made my rent late to the tune of $170 above and beyond my rent payment. I had plans for that $170, thank you. 

I don’t want to have to go back to the ER because this bronchitis morphed into pneumonia or something. This is ridiculous! 

Pardon me for being frustrated. I just don’t like being so sick I cannot function properly. I’ve got stuff to do, dammit all!


I’m Stef and this is where it’s @ !~

Take a deep breath


Early Monday morning (2/13/17), I finally decided to find out why I was having so much trouble breathing, and so I had Daniel take me to the ER.

To make a long story short, I have bronchitis and pleural effusion (fluid around the lungs). As soon as they took the x-ray, I knew that’s what they were looking for. So I was not surprised to hear it (I was more surprised at the bronchitis diagnosis, tbh). 
After a couple of hours, I was given some prescriptions and sent home. I had Jeff drop off the prescriptions at Walgreens (because CVS no longer has a contract with Blue Cross Blue Shield of Oklahoma). Daniel picked them up after Dean paid for them, because I’m essentially broke. At least, that’s what I understood. 

One of my bronchitis meds is albuterol. In an inhaler that I have to use twice a day as long as symptoms persist. 

Then I got what’s known as a “Z-pak”. That’s supposed to help with the infection. Then some heavy duty cough syrup that knocks me out.

Meanwhile, I keep my butt at home while working thru all this crap. 

Happy happy joy joy…

I hope this isn’t an indication of things to come for this year. 

Fifty three never looked so good 😝


I’m Stef and this is where it’s @ !~

The weight

I’m sick. How sick, I have no idea.

All I know is that it is hard to breathe, but it doesn’t feel like pleural effusion. It feels more like I have a thousand pounds of concrete sitting on my chest. It feels worse when my 5lb. cat Salem sits on my chest. Usually, because he’s so light, it doesn’t even bother me. It does now.

I ran out of meds last week. I go to renew my prescriptions with CVS, and it turns out that Blue Cross Blue Shield OK doesn’t have a contact with CVS any more. And not one word from BCBSOK regarding this. So now not only do I need meds, I have to transfer my current prescriptions to another pharmacy. I’ve used Walgreens, so I think I’ll transfer my prescriptions to them. 

So now, I need to get over this whatever I’ve got and get back on my meds, stat. 

I may be making a trip to the ER sooner rather than later.



I’m Stef and this is where it’s @ !~