We are all… Disturbed!

My trip to Dallas to see Disturbed and Breaking Benjamin is this week, and I’m excited as all get out! 

I just have some last minute stuff to take care of, then on Thursday, I get on the Heartland Flyer and head to Fort Worth, where I’ll pick up the rental car (which has become more trouble than it’s worth). I’ve had the hotel reservations since June (and it’s probably a dive, but it’s close to the venue), and the ticket to the show since March. What kills me is that 2 months after I purchased said ticket, the band announced an OKC show the day before the show in Dallas. 

However, I have several high school friends living in the Dallas metroplex (and we went to school in southern California!), and the chance to get out of my comfort zone (all of OKC) was a huge draw. 

And I’m not really enamored of the Zoo Amp anyway. Sorry not sorry. I’ve been there three times, and it was not a pleasant experience any of those times for different reasons. 

But I digress…

I’m getting pumped for the show, getting packed and getting ducks (tickets, paperwork, etc.) in a row so that on Thursday, I can get on the train with no worries. 

Keeping my fingers crossed!

I’m Stef and this is where it’s @ !~

My mind is just about made up re: who to vote for in November

I’ll know more after the Democrat’s dog and pony show this week. 

I already know I’m not voting for Trump. 

I probably won’t vote for Hillary either. 

I don’t like either of the choices before us. I feel neither of them are qualified or competent enough to be our next President. 

I’m done voting for the lesser of two evils. 

I’ve voted in every presidential election in which I was eligible to do so since 1984, the year I turned 20 years old. 

This time, I don’t know. 

There are no viable third party candidates to choose from. Writing in someone essentially throws your vote away, though it is tempting. 

I can no longer hold my nose and vote for the one who stinks less. 

We’ve got the racist, xenophobic, narcissistic, misogynistic billionaire


The shady, lying, covering up spouse of a former president whose party may have rigged her victory in the primaries.

Oh, who do I choose as the next leader of the free world >sarcasm<

I don’t even want to think about politics, elections, or candidates right now. 

Who’s right, who’s wrong? Who the fuck cares?

Neither of these candidates do, that’s for damn sure. They want us to be good little drones and vote.

I’m not a drone. I’m the Queen Bee, bitch! 

So put that in yer pipe and smoke it!

After all, they must be on something, right? 

I’m Stef this is where it’s @ !~

Political conventions could be hazardous to my sanity, let alone my health

The GOP convention ended yesterday. Thank God! 

Trump accepted the party’s nomination for president, and at one point during acceptance speech, he said, “I am your voice”.

No. No, Mr. Trump, you most certainly are NOT! You’re a misogynistic, xenophobic, homophobic, arsehole liar who thinks that just because it comes out of your mouth, then it must be fact. 

You want to build a wall on our border with Mexico, have at it. You pay for it, like, out of your own pockets. I mean, they ARE deep enough, right?

You want to keep out people whose countries are hotbeds for terrorism. Why? If your country was under siege by extremist terrorists, would you not try leave to make a better life for your family?

Oh, wait… you’re rich. That’ll NEVER happen to you! 

You also want to deny aid to NATO countries being attacked by…Russia?!

What is this, Cold War II? 

Then you have the audacity to suggest that if countries in that category want help from the US of A, they have to prove beneficial to us (you)?

Why don’t we fix what’s wrong here first. You want to do that, right? So what’s your plan to do just that? You probably have no earthly idea. That’s what advisors are for. 

I’m getting pissed off now. I better stop before I have a real stroke. 

Suffice it to say that I did a lot of yelling at my TV this week. Like it helps. I yelled at everyone from Melania, to Giuliani, to Trump lap dog Chris Christie, to Trump’s kids, to Mike Pence, to even Ted “non endorsement” Cruz. After all that, if I had to listen to his entire 76 minute speech, I may have really lost my mind. So I didn’t watch. I got the highlights later.

Next week, it’s the Democrats turn. That means more yelling at my TV. 

Better stock up on either popcorn…or a straight jacket and duct tape. 

What a circus this election has become!

God help us all.

I’m Stef and this is where it’s @ !~

Four years on…

Saturday (7/9) was the 4th anniversary of my mother’s death. I still cannot believe she’s gone. 

And, I’m kinda glad she’s not here to see the insanity this country has become. She’d never believe that Donald Trump and Hillary Clinton are running for president. She’d never believe how screwed up the state of Oklahoma become. She might not believe that people are still being discriminated against in this day and age.

I still wish she was still here to give me advice. 

She would have been 87 this year. She didn’t make it to her 83rd (she died three weeks shy of her July 31st birthday). 

She and dad are in a much better place. I hope they’re looking down from heaven and not shaking their heads in disbelief. I can imagine Dad saying to Mom, “You got out just in time.”



I’m Stef and this is where it’s @ !~

Please, just fucking STOP!

This week: two African American men killed by police in two different states for apparently no reason. 

Tonight (7/7/16): police were targeted at a rally in Dallas. Eleven shot, four dead (update: five officers have now died), the rest in critical condition or still in surgery. One of the alleged gunmen stated to police that he’s planted explosive devices in the downtown area. 

What the hell is happening here? Why are we powerless to stop it? Why are police targeting persons of color just going about their lives? 

Evil doesn’t drive out evil. Only love can do that. Violence never solved anything. As my dad was fond of saying, two wrongs don’t make a right.

Please, can we just stop, back up, and learn to love each other? Is that so flipping hard? 

In a society where even complying with an officer’s instructions can get you killed, can’t we just take everything on a case by case basis and not racially profile everyone because of a few bad people?

This hurts my heart. I have no words that can adequately express how angry and saddened I am by this recent turn of events. This is not the America I grew up in. Maybe I’m naïve, but we all have the right to live our lives as we see fit. Yes, there are bad people, evil people out there. Why use such a wide brush on everyone? What good has that ever done?

Please, for the love of the deity of your choice, please just stop killing each other. 


I’m Stef and this is where it’s @ !~